knowing that i have hurt you in this unimaginable way has shattered me into a billion tiny fragments.
i am more fragile than i appear at first glance.
nothing hurts me than seeing you hurt. nothing stings more than when you tell me we lost something we used to have.
and what's worse is that i don't know the thing we've lost so i cant go on a journey to retrieve that lost piece of us that has been misplaced.
you say eventually we'll be fine but i want to find that shard of enjay so i can place it back into your heart just so i can see the girl that i fell in love with. the gorgeous tiny you that would smile at my stupidity. and laugh at my randomness. the one who thinks im interesting because i know all these useless facts of our waking world.
all i want is for us to return to our former glory. the couple that everyone else wanted to be. the so perfectly miss-matched pair that we once were.
'through the darkness within me, you found my heart'. now the tables have turned, i must travel into the void that has engulfed that empty space in your heart to return the light that once shone so brightly through those beautifully aware eyes of yours.
i can tell you this, i will find it. i won't stop until it has been found and carefully replaced inside your heart.
this isn't a promise, because promises can be broken. this is me exposing myself and telling you that no matter what happens, it will be found. no matter what happens, i will always love you. no matter what happens, to me you will forever be mine.
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